I say that because I don't want to get stressed out and then have my sleeping spells hit me again like they did the last six months of last year. That was creepy because majority of the time I was only able to stay awake three to five hours out of the day. Eeks, it still gives me the chills thinking about it. That's why I've been taking this non-profit stuff at a slow pace and been completely relaxed. One thing is for sure, if I'm ever able to, I want to find out what was wrong with me last year. My neuropsych told me last year that there could be over ten possibilities as to what was affecting me anywhere from a sleeping disorder to the type of Traumatic Brain Injury I sustained ten years ago - left/right.
***shivers***

One of my contacts with the Brain Injury Association sent me some links to help me get more detailed information on building a non-profit organization. My daily planner now has so many notes on building a non-profit and ideas/plans for TBI Raiders...lol. This week and next week I am going to work on getting confirmations as far as to who is showing up for the meeting but already know we're going to need the auditorium for the meeting.
***Smiles***

Okay took a nearly two hour nap but am back up and time to dive back into doing homework. OMG and I have dishes and laundry to do...maybe I'll just skip housework today :D.

I say it might be a busy week because I have at least one meeting already set up and two more that need to be set up.  I am going to need to go to the dance studio on Wednesday to work on my solos and help with two classes plus go to church.  I am going to need to start walking around town this week so my costume looks perfect on me.  Plus I am going to need to get with someone who can fix my costume before the June recital.  Angela is going to get her class started on the assignments, I emailed her, on Monday.  Then once I'm done with the two meetings I need set up then I am going to have to contact a lawyer and have him and another lawyer come to a meeting I need to set up and get a hold of everyone to come to then TBI Raiders will become non-profit!  How exciting is that?!

I need to get to work on the newsletter this week and work on some of the websites for TBI Raiders.  Some of the kids in the leadership class want to create their own websites and do a lot of things with the organization.  I am just so pleased with how everything is going.  Once we get things set up I can already think of some people I want to get a hold of to have community outreach events in Luther.  The thing is I'm really excited about being able to cook a lot this week for one of the meetings.  I don't like cooking a lot for myself.  And it has been ages since I really cooked for anything.  I know it has been a long time since I can't even remember it.  Hold it, never mind because it's hard to remember some things since I have a short term memory problem.  Oh well at least I'm not repeating things like I did when I was in the hospital after I came out of my coma.  I could only remember things for five seconds worth at that time. 

I'm probably going to re-organize my home office today in the midst of cleaning my apartment.  I need to re-organize it since it's been a while and so many more things have been developing for TBI Raiders.  But it's not going to be all work for me today.  Later today I'm going to go visit my folks and then my youngest brother is in from college this weekend.  So it ought be fun.  Well I've got some things to get to so later ya'll!!!

I went to work with the Luther Middle School class.  The kids helped get everything folded into thirds then wrapped them up with a rubber band.  There wasn't enough time to put them into the baggies.  So I left the bags and other things to go in them with Angela.  Angela and I talked about long term goals after the class was over and she was helping me to my car with my stuff.  I'm not even put what we talked about until I have spoken to some of my legislative/congressional contacts to see if this, what we talked about, can even be pulled off.  Then probably will go back Friday to listen to Rep. Lindley speak to her class.  I'm so happy I was able to arrange that for Angela.

But other than that I have decided I'm just going to halt, if it's at all possible, in regards to crushing on guys period.  I'm so sick of being hurt in some way.  

• Whether it be the guys you crush on until they tell you their not looking for a relationship and in another sentence make it appear they don't even want a friendship with you!  

• Then you have the jerks that lead you on.  

• The you have the big freaking a**** who take advantage of you and force you to do what they want to do and you let them all because you so freaking desperate to fall in love! 

I've met guys from all three categories I listed.  It hurts like hell to even think about getting hurt again.  The only thing I want to do is fall in love with someone and it be someone who falls in love with me and doesn't fake it and will accept me for who I am.  Hell what makes it worse is I've never been in love in my whole 27 damn years of life!  But I don't know if I'll ever get my happy ending and be able to become a mother someday.  Okay that's all I'm posting because I'm starting to tear up.

I have an apartment to straighten up. I have the things that I took to the booth at UCO the last three days on my dining room table and couch and some on the floor. Plus I need to do some laundry. I'm very excited that one of my childhood friend's Angela is having her class become involved in TBI Raiders. Okay I may have posted something about that already...lol. We talk more in emails since we both are busy every now and then. I'm going to be working with her class on getting things together for some more stuff next week.

More importantly I just love that I'm still in touch with the legislators for Oklahoma still to this day. As I was telling someone with Senator Inhofe's campaign, I much rather speak to a legislator or the governor over someone who isn't in legislature or doesn't work at the state or government level because I'm so sick and honestly DAMN tired of getting attacked for my views....even most of the attacks have come from the democratic party. LOL If I ever got to see two friends I was in the college republicans club at Rose State College, BJ and Chad, I could so see them picking on me for choosing to become a democrat. They would probably be going why, why, why????????? I wonder what they are up to now.

But I also am waiting to get a package I order from Vista Print in the mail today. It includes a hat and t-shirt that is for TBI Raiders that I designed to give away in a name drawing. I order a load of other things as well. Ryan said I could bring it if I was able to come to an event for Senator Inhofe. lol He also told me I was more than welcome to mail it as well. I need to go to my account on Vista Print to see what all I ordered. I know it was a ton of things.

Well later folks I need to go get changed since storms are headed our way and I'm on the emergency management team.  God I love what I do!!!!!

I went to work with the leadership class today at Luther Middle School. But before I did that, I went to visit with the high school principal to talk about TBI Raiders. Everything went wonderfully! Before we start making the official move to non-profit, I am possibly going to be speaking to the juniors and seniors at Luther High School as well as some of the teachers. I met one of the high school teachers who is the advisor for like the National Honor Society and some other clubs. He is going to be getting his high school students involved and will be discussing it with them in a week or two. I told him that if he wanted me to come with some powerpoints to just let me know.

Okay now onto the fun stuff. I got there early and during Angela's planning period, she had some students come and help me get the stuff out of my car. Some of them helped me get the room ready while a few of the boys played with the bunny Angela's son was going to show for show and tell. The kids were happy that I had brought snickers for them since last time I said I had some I didn't. We got some signs made and we got copies made of everything we needed to but time ran out before we could finish everything. So I went to City Hall to finish everything. Richard, one of the volunteer firefighters, helped me fold the brochures. Then I put the brochures and mission statement in a clear plastic baggy to use as give aways and stapled the registration form together. I got my sticker to put on my car for TBI Raiders. It says S-2-V which stands for Survived to Vote and has the link to the website below it. Angela said even if I wasn't there, she would have the kids work on stuff for TBI Raiders and so I emailed her when I got home what they could help with and get ready for. But when I got home I took like a two to three hour nap. I really used my brain and the poor thing was exhausted. I was about physically exhausted as well. Well I need to get back to cleaning my apartment before my dad comes down to reinstall Microsoft Word 2003.